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So the other day I was alerted to a situation happening on twitter.

Someone had tweeted, after the maths GCSE exam that my friends and I, as well as 16 year olds across the country had taken, that

“if i was a girl, i’d come out of that exam crying”.

To which my friends (a group of girls) all immediately jumped on, saying things like “I’d cry if I had to share a gender with you” and “boys can cry too” to which the boy replied with counter arguments such as “i’d rather eat shit than be a feminist” and other grammatically incorrect statements.

I’d never thought of myself as a feminist until now. Because this boy said something extraordinary:

“Women are already equal”

Now it astounded me that someone male could even begin to say whether or not women were equal or not, almost like a king perched high on his throne, enjoying his privilege, saying that the peasants holding onto morsels of food in the dirt down below have it good, and are healthy. You can’t begin to decide whether people are okay without having experienced how they live and it’s even more appalling when the people saying you are equal are the ones who caused the gap in the first place.

Feminism is based on EQUALITY. It’s not women trying to be better than men. It’s women trying to become equal. Trying to make this a level playing field. But some men seem to feel threatened by feminists, and seem to think that their spot is going to be taken and prevent women from even getting near to them. At the moment we’re not even equal, let alone higher. Women don’t get paid as much and have to pay more for the same everyday items as men, when targeted towards a female audience.

But we’re getting there. In the UK, the chief of police is a woman, the head of the fire department is a woman and the prime minister is a woman, and there are many female MP’s. Are they just as respected as their male counterparts? Mostly. Get paid as much? I jolly well hope so. Are they just as talented? If not more. What needs to happen is that children need to be aware that the geniuses that came before them were not just men. We hear too much of the all male presidential history and the heavily male dominated STEM subjects and children just don’t hear about the females behind it all. For every Charles Babbage, there is an Ada Lovelace. Young girls need strong females to look up to. Marie Curie, Frida Kahlo, Joan of Arc, Boudicca, to name but a few…they are all women who need to be taught about more.

I am so proud to be female. There’s a bond that women share that is so special but so universal…it cannot be put into words. It’s the feeling you get when another woman walks into a room of men. It’s the safety when the strange man sitting next to you on the train gets up, and a woman sits in his place. It’s the joy you feel when you see a woman nursing a baby and the shared feeling of needing to help when you hear a baby cry. Girls can be bitchy and we have our fights but our friendships are so strong, you know you can count on each other to have a spare pad or some paracetamol. You know you can count on your friends to have your back in a fight and you know you can count on each other when a boy on twitter needs to be roasted (hahaha).

So are feminists annoying? We get our point across. And I am proud to be one.

Extra: I am thrilled at the new Wonder Woman film; a strong female actress playing a strong female superhero. Brilliant.





Are we living in a simulation?

computer simulation

If you’ve seen The Matrix then you’ll be familiar with the idea/theory that life as we know it is simply a simulation.

If not, then I shall explain, fellow explorer, for I possess le knowledge.

The theory suggests that as technology is becoming exponentially more powerful every day, that at some point in the future, it will become so powerful and so realistic that humans will be able to create a simulation of the whole world; laws of science, natural happenings, disasters and free will included. And that, my friends, is our world.

You may be thinking that this theory can’t possibly be real, because you can FEEL and TOUCH and it looks real! Ahh well think a little harder, young grasshopper because here’s a numbered list detailing exactly how this may happen. And also the rare case that it won’t…or isn’t happening…or hasn’t? Just read the numbered list it took me ages.

  1. The future scientists obviously have the science to create a big old world with time and space and feelings and nerves and consciousness.
  2. The Allegory Of The Cave: there are prisoners chained in a cave and they have been chained there, facing the wall, their whole lives. Occasionally, some people walk past the mouth of the cave, casting shadows on the cave wall for the prisoners to see. The prisoners begin to assign names to the figures and objects that they see. This is their world. This is all they know. They know nothing of what’s behind them and believe that the cave wall is it. So if we’re living in a simulation, of course we believe that this is just our world because it’s all we know.
  3. This unexplained piece of information: You know how computers slow down when they’re trying to process something REALLY huge and complicated? And when you’re playing a video game there might be blank spaces where things haven’t loaded in yet? Well what’s a really huge and complicated thing in the universe? A black hole. What does a black hole look like? An unloaded piece of the universe. What happens outside a black hole? Time slows down. Coincidence? I think not.
  4. When I was younger I imagined what it would be like if someone was actually controlling me…or watching me like in The Sims. Now maybe this is just a girl who grew up playing the Sims talking… or maybe it’s another case where children are more aware of the hidden truths than adults; like how children can sometimes see ghosts when adults can’t. (You hear all those stories of children pointing and talking to people that none of the grown-ups can see).

Now this theory isn’t just some crazy idea made up by bored people. Lots of people actually believe it. SMART people. Elon Musk, the founder of Tesla, for example, believes in the theory and has talked about it many times. He has said that the chances that we are NOT living in a computer simulation is “one in billions”.

Furthermore, the idea that humans are blissfully unaware of living in a computer simulation has been portrayed in the media. For example…

  1. The Matrix
  2. More Than This by Patrick Ness
  3. The Maze Runner series by James Dashner

Personally, I believe that it is highly possible that we are living in a computer-generated simulation and the fact that people from the future could be watching me type this right now simultaneously fills my attention-seeking heart with joy and creeps me out quite a bit. It also freaks me out that we may never be able to do anything about it, but then again, why would we? We may never know if we are living in a computer simulation or not so…ignorance is bliss? Being unaware doesn’t affect our ability to enjoy this ‘life’ that we’ve been blessed with, whether by God, science, or wacky scientists from the future.

So let me know what you think about this subject in the comments I guess! I don’t really have many visitors to this website so any feedback would be highly appreciated (especially seeing as I’m putting of revision for GCSE’s by writing this article…)

Thanks for reading!


Recipe for Success


1 dream/goal

150g of hard work

250g of perseverance

80g of support

Plenty of risks

A pinch of dumb luck

3 huge bowls of mistakes

An ounce of doubt

A sliver of envy

3 mental breakdowns

Half an energy drink

2 back-up plans

75g of belief in yourself

NB: recipe may not work the first time but after a few more shots you may be on to something






On exams


So it’s exam season and right now I’m 15 years old and somehow having a crisis. Exams are stupid and unnecessary yet completely justified because of the seemingly stable yet completely crumbling nature of our society.

If they were done right maybe we wouldn’t have such a big issue of teens having mental breakdowns, crying themselves to sleep, overworking themselves and getting close to zero hours of sleep each night.

The thing is, at such a young age we’re forced to think about our futures. We get teachers and respected adults asking us what we want to do in the future but all I want to do is be happy. Now I’ve somehow decided to do physics, maths and english A Levels but I know that had I done Art GCSE, my life would be going in the direction of art and music. That’s a huge ‘what-if’. And hurts to think that I would have been happier had I chosen to do art subjects. I still think that I won’t be smart enough for the A Levels I’ve chosen. That I would be happy doing them. And the thing is, feeling like you want to die is regarded as normal during exam season. Everyone wants it to be over right? Right?

You get two hours.

Two hours to pour your knowledge into that paper and if you don’t know the answer in those two hours, screw any chance of having a stable job in the future right? That’s what we’ve been told. Sure there’s subtle whispers of ‘they don’t really matter’ and ‘you don’t need them anyway’ but the clear and loud voices are telling students that GCSE’s (or any other big exams) will affect their lives. Now how does that make us feel? If I come out of that exam room feeling like I’ve blown it, it’s not just a paper. I’ve blown my chances of getting a good enough job to be able to provide for my family right? I’ve let down my parents. I’ve let myself down. And then students start thinking that the hours upon hours that they put into studying wasn’t enough, so they do more and neglect their health. That or they give up because ‘I’ll just fail anyway’ and ‘I can’t do it’.

I can’t do it.

I can’t.

That’s what the voice in my head keeps telling me.


You could call it that.